I’ve made a list of reasons why I want to lose weight to help keep me motivated. So here they are.

1. I love fashion. And I would love to be in style. But with this weight, it’s a barrier and limitation. I’ve always adore people that have good sense in fashion and think how lucky they are they have such great body to be in style. I want to be one of that lucky people.

2. I want to wear anything I want without being judged that that attire makes you look huger and such. I love belts and stripes!

3. I love photography. I like to take pictures and BE in pictures. But I hate the way I look in pictures and that always leave me in revolting feeling. I hate that I have to untag myself from my friends’ pictures because I don’t look good as they are.

4. My friends are all pretty. And they always get the attention. and it’s not that they always bully me of being fat and such. they are extremely nice and supporting. It’s just me that feel I’m the troll doll among of Barbie dolls.

5. I want to be that lucky person that can eat whatever they want without worrying of getting sick.

6. I always hate myself whenever I pass by a mirror. I just feel “oh this is what I look around people it’s ugly”. Then my self-esteem would drop down like dominoes.

7. I love lazying around. But people always judge me I’m lazy that’s why I’m so big. I want to change that and oh, fuck that people.

8. I don’t want to feel the spare tire or muffin top whenever I sit. It’s uncomfortable.

9. I want to do whatever without people stopping me because I’m big. “You can’t do monkey bars because you’re big. You might fall off and get your bones crack” oh listen I will change myself and show you I can do that without falling off.

10. I want to be able to fit smaller spaces. People always mock me for not being able fitting into smaller spaces.

11. I don’t want to jiggle anything whenever I move. It’s funny yet embarrassing XD And I don’t want to feel that I’m going to break something I sit or stand on. It’s a scary feeling.

12. I want to feel comfortable when telling people how much I weight and what clothing size in the store. and I don’t want to be labelled as XXL, XL and L girl anymore.

13. I want to be fit and healthy. I want to be able to run and jog without getting tired so quickly. I want to be one of the survivors during zombie uprising. Okay this is silly.

14. I don’t want to get ill at a young age and regret later because I was oblivious about my current lifestyle.

15. I like change. I would love to change something about myself. I want to show people I can change myself into something better and make them in awe. And losing weight is definitely the change I want to commit.

16. I deserve to feel good. We all do :D